sigh....jus had a trail of thought which made me think back to last year....there was just that feeling of remorse within me...like why did i leave in the first place? what made me leave? how are my friends now??
these things make me think back to that first ime i stepped into the school...the first time i met my classmates....the first time i joined band....the first time i held a flute...the first time i went for a competition (SYF)....the first time i felt the sense of failure....the first time i had so much fun with them....the first time i had to leave them....jus so remorseful....why did i do it in the first place??
what happened to the times which i spent with them studying....? the times i spent with them arranging surprise birthday parties....the time that they celebrated my birthday with me....the time we hid a cat in my locker...but had to release it in the end...the time we had to say goodbye for the last time....

now....i feeling very confused....i long to go back to them but i am pushed with many things in the new place...though i've met new friends....new people...new experiences...something jus lacks within me....sigh...

guys....i'm really sorry for doing what i did to you guys....i'm really sorry for putting you guys in such a deep pit or sadness....and i'm sorry for every leaving you guys...
for now...lets keep in touch forever....i'm sorry that i may not be able to celebrate one of the most precious celebration of my life with you guys...but please remember me....

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